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Sitting on the sidelines observing life.






Wednesday, December 15, 2010

Life's Decisions

It is no secret that your world can suddenly and without warning, just stand still. I stood at the bedside of my brother-in-law yesterday and just thought about this. As I stood there, I was a little scared. I was scared he was going to suddenly sit up, or yell, or cray out in pain or grab me. I don't really know why I was so scared. I guess the unknown has a way of doing that to us.


My sister-in-law and her kids have major decisions to make. God be with them...How do you make those kind of decisions? I don't ever want to know. But, who is to say I want have to make them some day or that someone might have to make those decisions about me. Modern medicine has caused us to have to make those decisions. Oh, don't get me wrong, I am very thankful for modern medicine. But sometimes I question it.


How do you know what is going on in the mind of someone who has had a major stroke or suffers from another illness? How do you know they won't just come out of it? Oh, the doctors tell you what they think will happen but they are not God, just educated people who have seen this over and over again.

Thursday, December 2, 2010

What happened to yesteryear?

My precious baby turns 22 tomorrow. Where in the world did all the time go. It seems like she was just born week before last.


She was so cute when she was born. I remember that instant feeling of unconditional love that consumed me the moment I saw her. That love has not changed.


It hasn't been easy, raising her. Of course it's never easy rasing any child. It is a tough job. A rewarding job. Expecially when you see them grow into beautiful, smart, young women. She's not perfect, by any means, but she is great. Both my girls are. I am so lucky to have such successful young ladies to call my own.


But rally, where did the time go? I remember baking cupcakes a time or two. And going to dance lessons, and piano lessons, and scouts, and