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Sitting on the sidelines observing life.






Tuesday, December 31, 2013

Out with the old

Can you believe it is the last day of another year?  2013 is almost gone and 2014 is here.  I guess it's really no big deal.  This seems to happen a lot and the older I get the more frequently these new years seem to come around.

This has been a year to remember.  Can you say STRESS????  Well, the last 5 months have been running over with stressful situations.  Whew.  Kinda glad to get to start a new year.  I worked at school this week and am ready, I think, to begin a new unit.  So, work is good.  Mom and dad are doing really good, Liz seems to be some better and, perhaps, adjusting to her new life a bit better.  My friend Linda comes home today.  My friend Joe is at home and doing pretty good.  My dog still has issues with his leg and still may become a three-legged dog.  Sweet, sweet Charly and her mom and dad are adjusting very well.  What a blessing she is.  Can you say over the top cuteness??????  The new house, or what we affectionately refer to as the money pit, is coming along.  So, things are pretty much on a level plane......today......

It is the American way to set goals or make resolutions on this the last day of the year so here are a few goals/resolutions I will consider for 2014:

1.  Mail more cards/letters.  I love buying stamps.  Oh, not paying that crazy price for them but actually holding them in my hand and sticking them to an envelop.  And I love getting cards and letters in the mail.  Email and smartphones are great but there is nothing like that physical card in your hand.

2. Read more for fun.  I love a good book.  I have a Kindle Fire but I love a good book in my hands (see above...same deal).

3.  Tuesday share day.  I want to get back to cooking for others on Tuesday.  I used to do this and really was blessed by sharing.  On it!!!

4.  WALK!!!!  Dangit.  Since we moved to the woods, it's just not as convenient to walk but I must get back in this habit.  I miss it and my body misses it and my soul misses it.  I was telling my dear sweet friend just yesterday that walking would solve allllll our problems.  It nourishes you physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually.  MUST walk.

5.  Slow down.  I don't have to hurry home everyday to get crap done.  It will wait.  It isn't going anywhere.  Slow down.

6.  Spend more time in God's word.  Sometimes I rush through my study.  See number 5 above.

7.  Worry less.  Yeah, right.  My precious eldest child says that I just find stuff to worry about.  Not true.  It finds me.  But my goal is to hide from worry.  Give it to God.  Maybe I need counseling...:)

8.  Spend more time at our little place in the mountains.  With everything going on this summer and fall, we didn't get up there that much.  I am going a lot this year....The first week-end we can open it up, I'm there.

9.  Have a vegetable garden.  With the move last summer, we didn't have a garden.  Being in the woods, I have a great place.  Just hope the deer don't destroy it.   We have pears, walnuts, grapes, apples and various other things so it is only natural to have a veggie garden.  

10.  Chickens....I want chickens.  I have a coop and daddy is going to help me fix it up.  Fresh eggs.  Can't wait.

It is good to set goals for yourself.  But one thing to keep in mind, don't beat yourself up if you don't reach all of them.  I can live without chickens and I will probably still worry and I will not walk as much as I'd like and I'll still text and e-mail my friends but with goals we start thinking about what we are doing and what is important to us.  We are but mere humans.  We live in a world of convenience and technology so we will all fall short on some of our goals but that is totally ok.

I guess to sum up goal setting we can do it very easily;  be nice, be good to yourself, serve God and enjoy living.   Happy New Year.

Wednesday, November 27, 2013

I Have A Car!!!

On this the eve of Thanksgiving, I was just standing outside on this cold wet morning with the hubby as he was about to leave for work.  (No, I didn't have on my Donna Reed pearls, dress and heels.)  He was asking why my car was so dirty.  My response was that I had never had a parking spot to call my own.  We (or should I say "HE") has so many dang cars it has always been hit and miss to find somewhere to park.  Now that we live in the woods, there is lots of mud and leaves to adorn my car.  After I told him this, he looked at me and said, "Yeah, but you do have a car."  And it got me to thinking, yes, I do have a car.  I have always had a car.  A nice car.  A car that runs and usually has gas.  A car that always has good tires, the oil is always checked and is somewhat clean.  I can go anywhere I need or want to go and not really worry about the car.  I feel safe in the car and feel confident my babies are safe when they are with me.  I have a car!

This got me to thinking of all the things I take for granted.  We all do, I know.  We take the little things for granted and when they are not working, or missing, or whatever, then we realize how important they are.  So, I decided, in honor of Thanksgiving, to make a list of the things (a few of them) that I am thankful for.  (these are in no particular order...well, except the first one.)

1.  My God.....WOW..I could go on and on.
2.  My precious life-mate, best friend, confidant, helper, etc.  Lane Logan, the MAN!
3.  My precious girls.  What a blessing they have been to me..(most of the time..:)
4.  The precious son God gave me for a few short weeks.  I know that someday when I get to heaven, there will be a rocking chair there for me and him to share....
5.  My amazing parents.  Their love and guidance all these years is overwhelming.
6.  My grandbabies...over the top joy and love
7.  My job that I absolutely love.  I walk in my classroom door each day and feel so blessed to be there.
8.  My church family.  What a blessing to me.
9.  My home.  comfortable, filled with love and laughter.
10.  My friends.  Those who are always there and give of their time and love to me so unselfishly.
11.  4-H club.  I went to 4-H club when I was growing up.  Here in this community.  I learned to cook and sew.  Today....I cook and sew....my loves.
12.  My health...Dang, I feel good.
13.  Prayer...Where would I be with out it?
14.  All the things I enjoy....food, sewing, reading, decorating, food, creating things, gardening, trips to the mountains, food, antique shops, coffee shops, food, yarn stores, kitchen stores
15. Spending time with those grandbabies I love so much.  coloring, playing with Barbie and dump trucks, sitting them on the counter to help me cook, bubble baths, reading stories, telling stores in the night.
16.  Those 3 precious South Carolina babies.  What a blessing they have brought to our lives in the short time we have had them.
17.  Discovering those amazing things in the woods at my new home.  fruit trees, beautifully strange shrubs, barns, horse carts....treasures
18.  coffee.....Need I say more??????

My list could go on forever.   Thanksgiving is a day to be thankful but we should all remember to be thankful every minute of the other 364 days in the year.  We live in a place of abundance.  Most of us do.  There are those who struggle so.  Families here in our own community who struggle to make ends meet, to feed and clothe their precious children.  We reach out to those and strive to help because we are so blessed.  Please remember this season and all through the year to give.  Give to those who are less fortunate.  Your time, your resources, etc. CAN be shared.

May your Thanksgiving be one of love, laughter and happiness.  Remember those who are sad, and suffering this holiday.  Please pray for precious Landry Crawford and his precious family.  May God give them peace and patience and comfort for what they are about to face.  God is so good and powerful..

HAPPY THANKSGIVING!!!

Sunday, October 13, 2013

Stress.......Who needs it?????

WOW!!! It sure has been a while since I've been here.  It seems like a long time since I've been, well, anywhere.  The past 5 months of my life have been absolutely crazy.  I mean over the top stressful. You do know that stress can kill you, right? Thank God I'm not dead.  Some of the stress has been good stuff. Like a new baby..:) and moving to the house in woods. (Catherine and my sister say I need to call this place something else besides house in the woods but I we haven't come up with anything yet.) Anyway, those things have been great but stressful.  

Sometime back, I blogged about "Growing up Dixon" and all the things wonderful about the Dixon Community.  Well, I'm back.  Back in May, we stumbled across this place and within a couple weeks we had made an offer and were on our way back to Dixon.  (Well, I was on my way back.  Lane was coming for the first time.)  Lane has always dreamed of living in the country.  I thought I had left for the big city years ago and was never coming back.  It took lots of prayer, tears and sleepless nights to get me convinced it was what I wanted to do.  We have lots to do here.  The house was build in 1984 and sits smack dab in the middle of 13.5 acres and needs some love.  Oh, it has amazing character and lots of great things but still needs some love. There is a creek that I used to play in as a child.  The front left side of the land is next to my uncle's house which my cousins live in now and the back side backs up to land another uncle owned where two of my cousins have homes.  Sorta like coming home and it's less than a mile to my mom and dad's.

During this time, Catherine and Roy moved back to the area.  They live near Roy's parents and are doing great in their new house the in-laws bought and fixed up for them. Their precious baby girl, Charly Laine, is at the top of the list for cuteness and has brought a lot of joy to our family so far.  

During this time of Catherine's move and our move to the woods, Liz and Ryan separated.  Sad.  Hard. Heartbreaking for my precious daughter.  BUT, God has a plan.  I know that separations and divorces are bad and not what God intends but I also know and believe that He is in control.  I know that He has an amazing plan for Elizabeth and like I remind her, I can't wait to see what her future holds. Yes, there has been gossip.  Lots, I'm sure.  But my daughter has spunk.  She even text messaged one such gossip queen and gave her all the gory details.  She said that way, the gossip would at least have the facts.  That's my girl!!!!

Then another biggie.  Mom's surgery.  Wow.  What a mess.  My mother has never been sick, nor has my dad.  Tests and scans were  foreign language to us. The last time she was in the hospital was when my sister was born. She's 50.  So all this threw us for a loop.  Mom had not been herself for sometime and after tests and scans and doctor visits, it was determined that she had a blocked carotid artery on the right side of her neck.  This explained the vision issues in her right eye and the numbness on the left side of her body.  Scary stuff.  Crazy things happened during the surgery.  You know that list they go over with you before you have surgery saying this and that could happen???  Well, all those things DID happen.  Well, except the last one.  And that night after the surgery, we didn't know what was going to happen.  But thanks to all the prayers and God's grace and blessings, momma is great and getting back to herself.  But it really knocked us all for a loop for a while.

So, life in the Logan household has not been boring.  I seriously think we are now on the downside.  Things appear to be going great for everybody.  Well, Elizabeth is still kinda sad but functioning as best she can and doing great.  Catherine is having sleepless nights and those new mom worries.  Mom is still recovering and not yet back to her old self but doing better everyday.  Lane and I still haven't sold our house on Wintergreen but know we will eventually and we still have lots to do at the new house. And if I can keep Lane out of the emergency room because of bee stings, we can continue exploring the property.(Yes, we did go to the emergency room last week.  Oh, and the doctor said "I" probably saved his life by giving him a double dose of antihistamine before we went.  I will continue to throw that up to him because he owes me bigtime.) We discovered an old barn with some wooden carts and lots and lots of beautiful shrubs and plants.  There are all types of fruit bearing trees and vines.  Love, love, love.

No, life isn't always easy and bunnies and butterflies.  But, it is so much easier to handle the hard times when you know God is in control and will never leave you.  My motto, which I struggle with, is to worry less and give it to God.  I don't always do this, but as I grow more in my Christian faith, it is easier to give it to God.  And you know what???? He'll take it.

Tuesday, July 30, 2013

As I begin this entry, I see by the tiny clock that it is 4:18. (A.M )  And yes, Susan, I am yelling.  Who does 4:00 in the morning?  I woke up about 3:30 wide awake.  I may be experiencing sympathy pregnancy insomnia with Catherine.   We're close like that.  Or it could  have something to do with the huge gash in my head from an incident with a ceiling fan earlier or it could have something to do with one of the 10,000 things on my mind

We're moving to the woods. We close tomorrow ( or today) at 4:00p.m.  A little less than 12 hours.  Well, we PLAN to close then.  This house buying has been over the top stressful. Seriously. Have you tried to buy house in the last couple years? Not an easy process this day and time. Did I mention the stress?

Said house is, well, amazing.  To us, that is.  It is my hubby' s dream. It sits right smack dab in the middle of 13.48 acres and is less than 1 mile from my parents.  The house is about 3/10ths of a mile from where I lived as a child.  Said house was built in 1984 (the year of our marital union...awwwwww) and is amazing and full of character. Oh, it needs some paint and a wall down and some doors replaced, etc. But amazing. Lots of pinterest projects.
Big kitchen, freshly remodeled and a great dining room.  A great sunroom freshly cleaned by Susan Cloninger.  Lots of nooks and crannies. The babes have already discovered some secret hiding places and have laid claim to their own rooms upstairs.  (Like they will really sleep up there alone....)

The yard needs a little love.  I can't wait for the fall so I can walk round and see what is there.  I have already discovered a pear tree (full of fruit), a black walnut tree (full of nuts), a grapevine, a cherry tree, and blackberry vines.

There is a huge garage with a real wood burning fireplace.  This should hold lots of car junk(hubby' s passion). Oh, and I say junk affectionately..:)


There is an old pool house, which is to become a potting shed, with an outside shower. (Great pinterest project)There is a wonderful place for my garden and there is an old chicken coop back in the woods. I am sure there is a lot yet to be discovered.

The greatest thing about the move, to me, is the location. A couple years ago I wrote about growing up in Dixon. Well, guess where  this house is?  That's right.  There is a creek down the hill from the house and across that creek is where my uncle always had a garden.  I played there as a child and in a few hours will own it..his house, built by him and my dad, is just up the hill. My cousin lives there now.  The back side of the property backs up to two more cousins. The creek seems a bit smaller now but was a favorite Sunday spot for us Dixon kids in the summer.

We are so excited.  It has been a hard decision.  I love my house here on Wintergreen. My neighbors are wonderful.  The location is great.  But the woods are calling.  When we made an offer and were immediately accepted, we both about fainted. I was up till 3:00a.m. one night looking at pictures, thinking and praying.  Was this what God wanted for us? Did I really want to start this new adventure at the age of....., well, my age?  Could I really leave my house I love and my neighbors I love more?  I waited until the last possible minute to tell my neighbors/dear friends across the street. I cried about it. I prayed about it.  Then I came to the realization that they are more than my neighbors.  They are our friends and will continue to be and can come enjoy the woods with us.  No, it won't be the same as being across the street but it will still be special.

So, I guess this is why I am up so early. I'm almost certain there is a nap in my future.

 God is good and has blessed us beyond comprehension. I want to use everything I have for His glory and this house in the woods is no exception.


Thursday, April 25, 2013

Winnin' with Quinlan....Update

Oh Yeah!!!!!  My God is an awesome God.  He answers prayers....He performs miracles...

QUINLAN IS IN TOTAL REMISSION.

I could go on and on but I don't know what else to say except Praise Be to God for His blessings on this precious child.

Tuesday, April 9, 2013

Winnin' With Quinlan...and he will

The first thing I do when I start to blog, is think of a cute, catchie title.  I have red that most writers never title their books until after it is finished.  Well, since I don't write books, I usually do this first.  But today I have had problems coming up with an appropriate title.  Here are a few that came to mind:
  • Ask and it shall be given to you
  • Faith, Hope and Love, these three
  • I told ya so
  • take that, cancer
  • Gotta have faith
  • YES
  • G.O.N.E.
But none of these really said what I really want to say.

Quinlan has been doing great.  A little nausea and a day or two of emotional break downs but other than that, he has done great.  And he looks good even with his shiny head...:)  Darin, Quinlan's dad, has been a little under the weather and stressed. Go figure...Stressed? But he is on the mends and doing as well as can be expected, maybe better, than someone who goes through this horrible disease with a precious child.  Keep praying for him.

Quinlan had a PET scan last Monday, April 1st.  The initial results from the people there was that it was "stable".  What the heck did that mean?  Stable?  To me it meant it wasn't getting any worse.  I was expecting to hear that it was gone.  He had already made progress after the first treatment if you remember, so I was really expecting a miracle. 

His appointment with his regular oncologist was today and they were told she would go over the results with him then.  This morning around 10:30, I received a text message from Quinlan's dad.  Yes, I had my cell phone out on my desk.(this is against school rules...ooops.)  Anyway, I read the text about 10 times, trying to make sure my eyes were really seeing what I thought they were.  Before I said anything to anyone, I had my teammate cover my class and I called Darin to be sure of what he was saying.  This is his message, " Good news - Scans say there's no activity on Quinlan's knee, and no cancer anywhere else in his body.  Bad news, we check into hospital today to start next cycle of treatment for the next 7 days".  I had to sit down while I was talking to him.  He said they were continuing with the treatments as planned as a preventive measure.  I think that "bad news" is something that can be handled.

Surprised????  I was not surprised in the least.  Amazed????  Absolutely.  Amazed at what my God can and will do if we have faith.   

Please continue to pray for Quinlan and his dad and his doctors.  That is what has gotten him here so far.

Monday, March 18, 2013

Winnin' with Quinlan...and he will

I visited with Quinlan and his dad after school today at Levine's.  Quinlan is there for the week for session two of chemo.  What a beautiful place.  Beautiful yet so sad to me.  Walking by all those rooms I just imagined what must be behind those doors.  My heart breaks for those babies.  When I arrived outside Quinlan's room, he and his dad were not there.  I peeked in and saw the blanket I had made him across the bed so I knew it was the right room.  I just assumed they were somewhere close by so I just waited in the hall.  In a few minutes a couple doctors came and entered the adjacent room.  Not that I would ever eavesdrop, but I couldn't help overhearing the doctor give the family good news.  The spinal fluid was negative.  Then I heard (what sounded like) joy and excitement. I was so excited for these strangers.  I just looked to heaven and praised my God.  What wonderful news.  I saw a couple other children this time.  On my past visits, I never saw another child.  I think God knew I wasn't ready for that.  I guess I was today.  Both the other children seemed happy and were full of life.  They were both bald but precious to see.  May God bless them and heal them.

In a moment the doctors entered Quinlan's room and turned to leave.  I asked if they knew where he might be and they escorted me to the "teen room".  Yep, there they were. All smiles and looking like twins.  They both have shaved heads now and just look precious.  Quinlan looked amazing and today had been a day filled with heavy drugs.  His dad said he was more interested in getting out of his room this time.  Praise be to God.

He is doing great.  I hope this session goes as well as the last.  He will probably be there until Friday.  According to the schedule, he will have another PET scan on April 1st.  I can't wait.  I know the results will be amazing, even miraculous.

Please continue to pray for Quinlan and his family.  His mom is back in Texas and I know it must be terribly hard for her to be away.  Pray for Quinlan's dad as he stays by his side day and night.  What an amazing twosome they are.  Pray for the doctors as they treat this precious child.  Pray they know what to do to rid his young body of this terrible desease. 

I firmly believe this cancer will soon be gone and Quinlan will be back to his normal self. 

Love to you all.

Friday, March 8, 2013

Winnin' With Quinlan..and he will

WOW.  As you all know, I am now considered a "walker".  I walk every day that I can.  And yesterday I walked with dialated eyes.  Yes, it's true, I did. No. I couldn't really see where I was going but fortunately knew the way.  Sometimes I walk with friends (when they have time for me) but most of the time I walk alone.  On my "alone" walks I have an hour and 15 minutes to think, pray, dream, wonder and even cry. Yesterday my eyes were watering, but not from crying this trip.  But it was an amazing experience. It was so amazing I thought I was going to have to sit down on the side of the road just to regain my composure.  It was one of those times when the presence of my God was so overwhelming, I could barely pick up my feet.  It was like He was walking right beside me.  I could feel His presence so strongly.  WOW. 

I started wondering if I was the only person who ever felt this way.  I know I'm not and maybe other people feel God's presence more often.  Maybe other people are more receptive to 'God's presence than I am. Someone told me tonight that God wants to bless us all the time.  I know this is true.  I know He blesses me every minute of every day. Even in the hard times.  Praise be to God.  

We had an amazing event at schol today for Quinlan.  We had a spaghetti supper that went beyond my expectations.  It was a lot of work but we all came toghether and it was over the top.  Yesterday while walking I was thinking of all that had to be done and all that others, even stranges had done.  I can not begin to list all the people who donated money, time and items for our supper.  It was amazing.  We had parents of other students go over the top with their help in donating items, running errands and helping us out tonight,  Not to mention all the teachers and administrators that stayed after school ON A FIDAY to help. My teammates have all been brought to tears this week by the kindness of others.  I think that is why I felt so blessed yesterday and knew my God was at the head of the endeavor.  Thank you God. 

Quinlan is doing great! He and his family were able to be with us tonight.  His parents, his grandparents, his uncle and friends and neighbors joined us.  We had kids on our team stay after school and help us with everything.  We have some amazing kids on our team.  In this day and time when the world seems to be in chaos, I am reminded that it ain't all bad!!!  There is love in kids and they want to love others.

Quinlan goes back for round 2 of chemo in a little over a week.  Please keep him in your prayers.  I strongly believe he will beat this cancer and be a stronger person for it.  Please continue to pray for his precious family as they deal with a sick child.  I know what that's like and it is a horrible helpless feeling.  Pray hard. Pray for the doctors and caregivers to know what to do to get this disase out of his precious body.  

God is good.  I pray He will make His presence known to me or better yet, that I will be more receptive of the constant presence I know is there.

Friday, February 22, 2013

Winnin' with Quinlan

To update:

Quinlan Scism is an 8th grade student in my WIN class and 4th block.  Precious, quiet, humble, sweet kid.

He was recently diagnosed with Diffuse Large B Cell Lymphoma.  Stage 3B.  He has areas in his knee, hip, shoulder and arm pit.  He began treatment last Friday, February 15th and so far is doing great. 

His road map for treatment indicated that after the first of the session, he should have a 20% reduction in the tumors.  Yesterday's PET scan showed that the tumor in his knee had gone from a 6 to a 2 (I believe that's more than 20%  :) ) and that the other areas were not as "bright" as they were a week ago.   WOW.  Praise be to God.

Quinlan's parents are amazing people and I am enjoying getting to know them. It must be so hard for them to watch their precious son go through this.  Please pray for them.  Pray for peace and guidance and patience and understanding. 

We at KMMS have several events planned in the coming weeks to raise funds to help alleviate some of the financial burdens placed on a family at times like these.  We are now selling wristbands that have our slogan "Winnin' With Quinlan" printed on them for $2.00.  On Friday, March 8th, we are having a spaghetti supper at our school from 4:00 to 7:00.  Tickets are $6.00 and include spaghetti, salad and bread.  Deserts and drinks will be sold separately and you can eat-in our carry out.  Also, we have two precious ladies that will be at the school giving haircuts for a donation.(Yes, the famous Catherine Logan Barker will be there with scissors in hand)  And a student from the high school is doing a ZUMBA event as her senior project to help us out.  I will have more details about that later. 

Please consider helping us out.  If anyone has contacts at the Dole plant in Bessemer City, I could really use your help getting lettuce donated.  I hear they do this on occasion.

People have been so kind.  At the grocery store today, a friend of mine (I won't mention her name) walked in as I did and we were talking about Quinlan.  I told her I was picking up items to make a goodie bag to take over today.  In a few minutes she found me and handed me a gift card and said that it was on her today.  We both just hugged and cried.  Amazing. 

I had a great visit with Quinlan and his parents at Levine's this afternoon.  What an amazing place. 

I really believe that Quinlan IS going to win this battle.  I have researched these crazy drugs and really don't see how they can't work.  What amazing work has been done over the years in cancer research and discovery of these powerful chemicals used.  I have really learned a lot.

My plea is for prayer.  I do so believe in it's power and know God is at work in Quinlan's life.

My God is an awesome God.